Sometimes confidence just gets shaken, especially when u think it's hopeful, things just bust. Less hope, less disappointment...
I'm trying to carry on, especially when so many try to pull me down. I like meeting nice people, but there's always bastards everywhere. That's my job.
I've been taken for a ride today.
Sometimes I really wonder if I made the right choice. My manager told me that the harder u fall, the more successful u will be. And there's no agents who have not had any bad patch.
Company conference today. My manager promoted to director, my colleague got the best rookie. He earned $200k in about 6 months, which is equivalent to working for 3 to 4 years of what an average person earns, after one whole year without sales. My manager, when he first came in, has negative sales for the first year. And now, he's a director. If they can make it, why can't I? I just need to learn. One day, I'll be on that stage, with all the TOP achievers! One day I'll be like my manager, my director, sharing with the newcomers my experience. I'll survive!!
Everytime u step on me, I get stronger!!
Nothing in this world happens by chance.
Been busy this week. Started my tuition and relief teaching. Basically it's just to cover my expenses. Business wise, still working on it. Like a chinese saying "万事起头难". Just need to endure and learn from mistakes. One day I'll earn at least 5 digits a month!
I like this phrase " 命里有时终须有， 命里无时莫强求"
Something wrong with my handphone. Sometimes when people call me, they'll get this msg "We are not getting a response from the subscriber's mobile phone..." when I am at home and the signal is full bar. And at times I will get sms that is 2 hrs late.
Already changed a new phone yesterday (As palm do not have a service centre in Singapore, whatever hardware problems of the phone, it is a 1 to 1 exchange), so can't be phone problem. And changed a new sim card yesterday, so can't be sim card problem. Then must be the network...
Just when things look promising, it turned downhill. But I'll just take it as a challenge for me. Learn from it and move on!
Can see that things are lining up for me.. Hope that I dun bust them and I will earn some money for the next few months if everything goes well. Wish me luck!!!
I'm going to repaint my room!
Just some memories when I visited Basic Essence website. Ever since I known that place, and got so familiar with it, this is the first time I visited its website. The place is no longer where it used to be. It had moved... And I begin to realise how time flies.. It's been about 2 years since I lost contact with that place. A place where I can still remember its smell, its music... A place that has quite a great effect on me...
Things have changed, and everyone moved on. The people that used to be there are no longer there. What's left are only the memories that stayed with me... But do I exist in their memory?
The Fern & the BambooOne day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods, and decided to have one last talk with ‘God’.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said.
"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light. I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo."
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
"But I did not quit on the bamboo".
He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.
In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
"I would not quit."
He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.
But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots.
I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.
Don't compare yourself to others."
He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern, yet, they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come, "God said to me. " You will rise high!"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can!"
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on us.
Never regret a day in our life.
Good days give us happiness.
Bad days give us experiences.
Both are essential to life.
Keep going...
Happiness keeps us sweet,
Trials keep us strong,
Sorrows keep us human,
Failures keep us humble,
Success keeps us glowing,
but only God (or by whatever name we may call ‘God’) will keep us Going
There are just some things that I dun wan to think about it. Maddie and KS are right! The biggest problem abt me is that I think too much. Somehow I have this idealistic mindset that under certain specific condition, all things will respond in a specific way. But the truth is not like that. There are many things without any reasons or rationale behind it!
I should just take things as they were. Dun think so much, dun expect so much. What will come will come... Just be happy and enjoy life!
