Just a joke to illustrate my point below:
Some guy bought a new fridge for his house. To get rid of his old fridge, he put it in his front yard and hung a sign on it saying: "Free to good home. You want it, you take it." For three days the fridge sat there without even one person looking twice at it. He eventually decided that people were too un-trusting of this deal. It looked to good to be true, so he changed the sign to read: "Fridge for sale $50." The next day someone stole it.
Everyone wants to get rich, everyone wants money, everyone wants abandance, but are they willing to accept it if it's presented to them? For example, when u're in need of money and one day, a complete stranger walks up to u and give u money, will u accept it? I'm sure at the back of ur mind u'll be wondering why is that stranger so kind to u, is he up to something, do u deserve it etc etc.
Perhaps we've all been "trained up" never to trust strangers. I remembered that during my childhood days, my mum used to tell me that there are those people who go around kidnapping children and chop their head to build bridges. And when we are naughty, they'll say "wait mang gali catch u" All these, sub-consciously, train us not to trust others. All these are negativity that are obstacles to the path of our life.
Xinyan once told me, everytime when she's in need of something, something will happen out of nowhere to help her attain it. For example if she has no money, someone, complete strangers, will offer to give her money for no reasons. And she'll say "thank you" and accept it. For people who were "trained" not to trust strangers will say there must be a motive, but there's no strings attached. She's knows how to accept abandance, and that's why she gets it. For most people, even if u need money and someone come up to u to offer u money, u will reject the offer. So it's not that chances and opportunities dun come to u. It's u who reject the opportunity.
Perhaps we're trained to be sceptical, that's why even if things come to us, we'll brush it away.
Things dun happen to u. Things happen from u!! Learn to accept it, and it'll come to u naturally.
Human beings are nothing more than a habit generating machine. Our actions, eventually form our habits. And they are stored in the subconscious. We form habits, but eventually we are controlled by them. It's hard to break a habit, and it takes a lot of conscious efforts and will power and determination to break them.
Therefore, habits can be a powerful tool if we can use them properly. Just like in my dung story in my previous entry, when things happen, u can view it from 2 ways. So if we form a habit to look at it from a positive way, we'll never be daunted by problems.
How we think controls how we act. Just like a friend of mine. He always feels that he has no friends and no one wants to befriend him and pulls a long face everyday. One day, another classmate of mine came to me and told me that he's afraid to talk to him as he always pull a long face. Well it's a vicious cycle...
In a meeting, have u noticed that everyone sits in the same place? Once we're comfortable with a place or seat, we'll stick to it. We're resistant to changes. That place becomes "our seat" and it formed our "habit". One day, just try sitting in another people's seat.
Ever since I started school, I think I've become more thrifty, or more kiam syap. Last time when I buy thing, I wun even consider the price. If it's 3 digit, without the decimal point lar, I just think for 30 seconds, and I'll buy it. If the price is 2 digit, I wun even think and buy it.
I print my lecture notes on rough paper now. Last time they must be on a new piece of paper. But now, even if the paper change colour I also use. Even got staple holes I also use. I tend to think more before I buy something. Coz now no more income and have to eat into my saving for a year or so. And of course, I'm planning something big, that's why must try to save whatever I can. Sometime I dun even drive when going out to save petrol.
I spend my day trying to refill my ink cartridge with some cheap refills. HP ink cartridge is damn expensive. And in the end my black ink cartridge work and my colour cartridge cant work. The blue ink keeps leaking. I was thinking since HP ink cartridge is so expensive, I might as well sell the printer away and buy Canon or Epson. Maybe a second hand one. Canon and Epson inks are cheaper. And in the long run may save quite a bit. And selling off the HP printer will offset some cost too...
Even when it comes to eating, I seldom eat at nice places too. Either those cheap cheap places, or eat at home. Sian..
Am I becoming more matured?? Aiyah, just kiam syap lar...What to do? Dun want to use my parent's money is like that one lor..
It seems like these few days everyone is in a bad mood. Think such things are seasonal. Sometime when one of ur fren break up, then u'll see a few more breaking up. And once they patch, the rest will all patch. Maybe it's because of some magnetic field from the solar system.. Or maybe it's because pluto is no longer considered a planet.. No link..
I am having emotional diarrhoea recently. Ya, emotional diarrhoea. Know what is diarrhoea? Lau sai. Everything comes out uncontrollably. Emotional diarrhoea is the same thing. Some things that u dun want to think, u think of it. Even if u try not to think, it comes out in ur dreams. And it's not those good dreams, u dream of it in a negative way...
Ericia was asking me if time goes back, will I sign on. And I said yes. Although I can't see any future in the organisation, I must admit that the organisation has given me a lot. And of course I learn a lot...
As I Mature...
I've learned that you cannot make
someone love you. All you can do is
stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just assholes.
I've learned that it takes years
to build up trust, and it only takes
suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that you can get by
on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better have a big willy
or huge boobs.
I've learned that you shouldn't
compare yourself to others - they are
more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting
long after you think you're finished.
I've learned that we are responsible
for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that regardless of
how hot and steamy a relationship is at
first, the passion fades, and there had better
be a lot of money to take its place!
I've learned that 99% of the time when
something isn't working in your house, one
of your kids did it
I've learned that the people you care most
about in life are taken from you too soon
and all the less important ones just never go away.
Looking back at my life for the past half year, there's a lot of changes. It's like I'm having a total change in my direction in life. The start of the change is perhaps the break of a relationship in Feb...
After that I started to quit, and then trying for pilot and then study. Right now I'm a full time student, although officially I'm still working in the previous organisation. And at the same time applying for pilot. 3 things at one go. Last time in that previous job, I have no goals. Every morning I just go to work, and then it repeats day after day. I dunno what I'm working for. There's nothing to look forward to. I got to know 2 pilots and they encouraged me to try for pilot. After that I started to have something to look forward to, a goal to work towards. I took a step to step out of the organisation. At the time when I told my boss of my intention to leave the organisation, I have nothing to fall back on. I have no offer from the university, and no news from SIA for interview. I just tell myself to go all the way to fight for my goals. I intended to go Malaysia to take a private pilot licence if I couldn't get into SIA. And that would mean emptying my bank account to get that licence. It cost damn a lot to learn to fly. And after that I would come back and try again.
Shortly after that I got an offer from NTU. When I got the letter, I intended to reject the offer. And my mother and sister persuaded me otherwise. They said that not many people can study masters and I have the opportunity and should not reject it. Well, there's some factors that I was considering at that time, even now...
I'm trying to apply for SIA and if I get in, I'll quit school. And my masters course is held at night, every night. Therefore I planned that if I happened not to get into SIA, I'll go malaysia to learn to fly in the morning and study at night. And try and try until I get in. And at times when I'm not flying, perhaps I'll teach some tuition. It'll be damn shag. But I think I'll be happier...
That's my life for now. Out of the 3 things, I'm doing 1.5 now. I started studying-1. I've sourced for a flying school in malaysia and went for the introduction flight. Have not registered for the course yet, so it's considered half done. For the third thing, I've sent in my application and awaiting for interview. Hope for the best and aim for the sky!!
It's been a while since I last blog... Well, school starts, and I still dunno if I want to continue to study. And the lecturer was saying that it's quite hard to get a job with biomedical qualification. I was thinking why I should dump in $5k into the education and in the end can't find a job? Still thinking.. I have 5 more days to decide..
Went malaysia to fly yesterday. It's only the introductory flight. It was so fun. I got a chance to have the control for a short while. The plane took off, and when in the air, the instructor taught me for a while and let me have a try. And now the question is whether I want to take the full course licence. Abt RM16 to 20k.. quite expensive.. Think I'll shelf it till after the SIA interview. If I manage to get into SIA, then I no need to take the private course. If not....
